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kathryn smallwood,
2 january 2002,
11 months,
blackburn,
pneuomonia
While i was carrying Kathryn i went for my 20 wk scan we found out she had hydrocephelus, we were
devasted. The midwives gave us the choice of an abortion but i refused because no matter what was
wrong with my little girl she would be loved just as much! At 26 wks i went into labour, Kathryn was
deliverd by emergency c section due to difficulties during the labour. i got to see Kathryn early
hours the nxt morning when i woke up from the anisetic. Kathryn was hooked up 2 wires and alsorts
in an incubator and i felt at that moment that a part of me had just died! A doctor came to me and
said we have to take each day as it comes, but she fought her way through it. 3 months Kathryn spent
in the prem unit until she was finally well enough 2 come home, we bought her home on the 26 th
april. We had to take her to pendlebury childrens hospital on may day due to have an operation on
her head on the tuesday, but her dad took ill that day and with emergency ops comng in
kathryn's op got cancelled. Kathryns dad came home to see doctor, who sent him up to the
hospital. i got a phone call l8 that nite to say that bob would be stayin in hospital down there.
Kathryn went for her opertion at 5 pm on the thursday, but her dad was still in hospital in
blackburn. She was in theartre just over 2 hrs wen a nurse came to me and asked if i would walk to
theatre with her 2 pick kathryn up. When we arived her little head was all swollen but i was so glad
to have my little girl bk again. The day after her operation a doctor came to her and checked her
over but she heard a slight murmer on Kathryns little heart, told me that it sounded like Kathryn
had a hole in her heart, after a scan we were told that Kathryn had 2 holes in her heart and
hypertension of the lungs. But my little girls wasn't about to give up after all she had been
thru. We finally got to take her home again 6 wks l8r. Kathryn was always a happy little girl, she
loved zooming round the living room in her walker. A week before christmas i had settled her in her
cot and went bk down to start sorting her steraliser out when i heard a loud cough come over her
monitor so a ran upstairs and told bob to get me the phone because she was wheezing, i rang
queen's park and they told me to get her there straight away. As soon as we got there a doctor
was standing by to look at her, and a specialist pediatrician was called to the ward for a second
opinion. the decition was made to put her on a ventilator and get her up to pendlebury intensive
care unit. We spent xmas and new year there when a doctor told us that she was not improving an and
either we had to make the decition to take her off the ventilator or the doctors would have to do it
for us. So on the 2 nd january we decided it was time. After all Kathryn had suffered enough. I know
Kathryn will always be with me no matter where i go or wha i do, good night Kathryn sweet dreams my
little sweetie pie. and always remember kathryn your a superstar xxxxxxxxxxxx
Im so sorry for you loss
passing mummy of an angel
looked up and saw a rainbow
Although it had not rained
And somewhere high above me
A little angel waved
Was it just my mind a ' wandering
I really did not know
Until you whispered 'mummy'
How my love for you will grow
One day we'll be together
And I live within your heart
As a mother and her baby
Are never far apart.
come visit us when you are ready , we understand xx
www.forums.ourforeverlit tleangels.co.uk
I am so very sorry for your loss. Sleep tight Kathryn, sweet dreams.
Thinking of you with love
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We thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday, and days before that too.
We think of you in silence, we often speak your name.
All we have are memories, and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake, with which we will never part.
God has you in his keeping, we have you in our hearts.
A million times we've wanted you, a million times we cried.
If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died.
It broke our hearts to lose you, but you didn't go alone.
For a part of us went with you, the day God called you home.
beautiful angel Kathryn
Here is a teddy bear for you sweet angel as you can never have too many.
I hope you are playing happily with my daughter Livvy but try not to get up to too much mischief together.
send mummy and daddy lots of floaty kisses as i know thy miss you so much.
with love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
OurForeverBabies.com
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Ask My Mum How She Is
My Mum, she tells a lot of lies,
She never did before.
But from now until she dies,
She'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mum how she is
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
Because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mum how she is,
She'll say 'I'm alright.'
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night?
Ask my Mum how she is,
She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mum how she is,
'I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping.'
For God's sake Mum, just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.
I am Here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, 'You're lucky to get in here, Mum,
With all the lies you told.
Gone not forgotten
I am I and you are you, whatever we were to each other that we still are.
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
Life means all that it ever meant, it is the same as it ever was.
Sent with love
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